Tuesday, November 16, 2010
Okie. let me start off with some random stuffs --> Im feeling damn cold! Its raining heavily outside plus aircon inside the office and im wearing a thin shirt. DAMN COLD AH. And also damn tired. If i haf my bolster nw, i swear i'd fall aslp. Ytd night i dreamt that pudge( a dota hero) chasing me and trying to hook me and rot me to death. Jux when the pudge was abt to come close to me or smth, my mother woke me up. HEHE. So slpy uh. When i sleep really well, I get more slpy. When i think of stuffs and cant get to slp that well, i wont feel so slpy. Weird huh?
Okie thats not the main purpose of blogging. Today, I wanna blog abt 2 things. My goal and future. o.o sounds chim rite. or shd i say, sounds wrong. WHAT? ME TALKING ABT FUTURE? When i don even plan shit. HAHAH.
Okie. firstly --> Goal. Previously, i don have a goal. yeah. not even once. Perhaps the best will be hoping to pass or smth, but no, i don consider that as a goal. Now my goal, win dota compy.! (at least 3rd) i noe its kinda difficult cux der are lotsss of PROs out der, but yes, if a goal is easy to get, it wont be challenging. The dota compy which i joined, i lost. =< Seriously, we could haf won it. But tt day, i damn stress and dunno doing wat shit, so kept making mistakes. Damn burden. HAHAH. If i can play the way i play at home (focus, concentrate), those mistakes can be avoided. Emo uh. But its okie. I'll try again. I used to say to my friends, If u think u can, u can. Hopefully uh. ( Actually i say to motivate them, but its easy to say, yet hard to do it. =x)
Quite a no.of my friends told me before, Hey, i think you shd start planning what u wanna do or study instead on jux playing (dota, shop, all kinds). Some said, dota is useless, I shd stop it. Bcux of dota, (1)i neglected studies, (2)don haf a bf, (3)rage and emo over a game at times, (4)don haf tt much time for friends.
I wanna explain uh. (1) I DON neglect studies bcux of dota, jux that im a last min person and even if i don play, i'll wait till the last min den i'll study. No y. Thats jux me. (2) Pple say that find bf to spend time with, well, since i gt dota, i don see a need to. 0.0 For me, i don realli put love in the first place. Interest> love. If i haf a bf and he doesnt support me in what i do, i don see a need to continue on. I believe that what is meant to be, will be. So no point rushing. (3) ya. true. but nw, i seldom rage and emo over a game as compared to last time uh. Even if i do, it will be for awhile only. (4) I'll still meet my friends up for shopping, singing and stuffs liddat when free, so its still okie. Well, my friends gt their bf to acc too, so i gt my dota?? or others friends. o.o
True. Playing dota cant make money and help in the future or whatever. But the joy from winning a game cannot be bought with money too. I wanna win. I love winning so much that if i happen to, i'll be realli happy. Yet, I hate losing more than i love to win. Contradicting? i think so too. So ya. that explains. But im quite glad that some friends do support me. muahahah.
Okie next, future. Future- work? marriage? To be honest, even until now i dunno what will i be wrking as when i graduate. time passes so quickly that hey, im left with 2 wks of attachment and 4 months more to graduate from poly. I gt no other interest soo even thou hw hard i try to plan/think what i wanna do, i cant =<. But okie la. Maybe i'll just get those few months contract job den keep changing here and der. Marriage? Wtfuk. I cannot imagine myself getting married sia. Sure damn bai chi. Okie la. i admit, i childish. So me settling down? hmmm, weird. But eventually one day, i'll haf to, when i manage to find the Mr Right uh. But for me, when i graduate, firstly, i'll get my driving license. Den, i'll wrk to get a car. Den i'll think of settling down, perhaps, abt, 25? Aiyah, say say only. This kind cannot predict one. Like i said, if Meant to be, eventually will.
Okie, thats all. Preparing to go home. tml hols. WOOT. =D
Just ME ;
